"Being unfaithful is the last thing a partner would ask for"
Yes, indeed. Having an unfaithful partner is what I would never ask for. And to be one, would never be on my "to-do" list. I've seen tons of unfaithful partners who ended breaking up in their relationship. I would trade for anything *err except something?* just not to have an unfaithful partner.
I am talking in experience.
I have been in a relationship with so many ups and downs. Married couple do fight too, why can't unmarried couples then? Except, unmarried couples always quarrel over little things like, no time to spend with each other due to curfew, inflexible working hours, misunderstandings over little things etc etc etc..
Recently, like some of you may know, I am having a terrible time. Or shall I say, I'm having doubts. I know though its a too personal for me to share it here, I don't mind at all. Because I created this space for me to put down my thoughts and feelings.
Most of girls my age, still love being under the disco light, spend their nights flirting around, having drinking session with girls + GUYS, and then cry when their boyfriend leave/abandon them. Why should they even cry, what for? See, people like that who still want to enjoy, then enjoy. You know that you're being unfaithful, you're not in the right path.
Well, can't help it if both partners are being unfaithful.
All I'm trying to say is, once it happens, we girls bet it will definitely happen again. Or even if it didn't, the trust is no longer strong like it was before. I've been in different kinds of relationship before I finally found one that I want to settle down with. People may say I'm too young to get married, enjoy! live life to the fullest.. errr?? That should never be imposed to me. What if I spend my night today, flirting around with guys under the disco light, and then on my way home, I got knocked down by a truck *touch wood* and died instantly. And I know for sure, people surrounding me will have bad impression of me, just seeing the way my dead body lies on the road with the slutty dress I put on. And then, I will never get to experience being in married life. Yes, we can't fight death, and we can't run for it. But why waste our time?
Oh, NO! Don't get the wrong picture. My fiance isn't like that, and I am pretty sure of it.. Because he spend his nights everyday with me.
However, I kept asking myself. Will I gain back the trust that we used to have for each other? Will I be able to forget the past and start anew? Not all past are to be forgotten. Indeed, some past makes us a better person. It taught us to be more mature, to know whats right and whats wrong. To know who is the evil lying behind of all evils. To know who is the mastermind of all bad deeds.
Its been months now, but still, the memories are still fresh in my mind. HOW?
Oh, yeap.. I've changed my link.. It looks more like us now.
✿(◠‿◠)✿ Love, Shasha @ 8:33 AM
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