Whenever I've found my happiness, there are always obstacles along the way. Don't talk about friends now.
I never felt like I have a sister (although I have one). Until, I got close to my cousin who treated me like I'm her own. She has her own younger sister who is already married with 2 beautiful kids. Well, Facebook has brought me close to the people I never once got closed with, people I never knew.
See, I have been living for 20 years now, and she has been living for 30 years. Throughout my 18 years, never once I tried talking to her in a sisterly manner, until one day, when we decided to meet up. Things between us turned sweeter and eventually we became so close that I felt that she was like my own sister. We lived just across the street, and we often meet up.
Well, yesterday was my first day out with her and her sister(together with her 2 gorgeous kids). It was a bit awkward to talk to her sister, though she is also my cousin. See, she always commented on my Fb, if I upload my status about my day with her sister. She have never commented on nice things, thus, her words always sounded like she's jealous. So, I thought she was just joking around.
So, yesterday seemed a bit fine. Until today when I saw her status update on how she felt she was being pushed aside. Frankly, I felt the hurt. Cause the way she put in her words, is like she's accusing me of snatching her sister away from her. I swear I know how it feels, cos I felt the same way too when my sister found her bestfriend and no longer in talking and good terms with me.
I love being around the elder sister. Cause with her, I can be a friend, a listening ear, I can be myself. I feel bad.. What should I do? I seriously feel so bad.. So so bad for doing this to her.. If I would have known earlier that this would bring a great impact on her, I would not have hurt her feelings.. BUT! I swear I don't mean to hurt her, it has never crossed my mind.. NEVER!
I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way..
✿(◠‿◠)✿ Love, Shasha @ 11:24 AM
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